Out of Ideas

We have been struggling with Raeanne for sometime now. Basically since day 1. She has been giving us a run for our money and I truly am past my breaking point.. I fear that when she goes back with Missy she will only PUSH Missy into a relapse because of Raeanne's CONSTANT cry for attention and lashing out. It's so hard. All you mom's out there, if you have any advice PLEASE HELP ME OUT!!

Raeanne has been going to a therapist (its mandatory by the State) and she has been getting her sessions alone and also with her mother. Yet it appears to be doing NO GOOD!!!

At the very beginning everyone who met Raeanne saw this lost little girl, terrified of rejection by another person, so excited for the opportunity to get a second chance at her childhood. She was so kind and so innocent. I latched onto her right away, wanting to protect her, love her, teach her how to be thankful for things and be an honest hard working person. I wanted to show her that she could find happiness, that she could find peace with herself and her situation. She quickly began acting out for attention, but negative attention, we caught her talking dirty online, with inappropriate pictures online and tried to express to her that the Internet is an OPEN Field, that ANYONE can see those pictures and do whatever they wished with them. She only nodded her way through the conversation only to continue doing it behind our backs. She has this mentality that "it won't happen to me" and doesn't realize how scary it is for us. Raeanne has been stealing, sneaking, lying, cheating, and I am so beyond embarrassed and disgusted. She has snuck into my bedroom and taken my clothes (about 20 shirts I can still NOT LOCATE- I believe she took them to school or gave them to friends as I have searched her room), taken shoes, panties and even bras of mine. She has taken curling irons, makeup and much more from me as well. It's a slap in the face and it is breaking my heart that she finds this behavior ok. I have talked to her about this several times, but it doesn't help. I have now began locking our bedroom door and bathroom door daily, yet my things are still coming up missing if I forget to lock something up.

Two weeks ago she snuck a boy into her room. He arrived at 8 p.m. and we caught him there 1t 11:30 p.m. but ONLY because the boys' father showed up to find him. I had been in the shower and heard this THUMP noise and ran upstairs thinking Papa had fallen down. That is when i heard a knock at the door and went to get it. The dad was requesting his son, who came moping down our hallway. I wanted to rip his head off his shoulders and then do the same to Raeanne. She is 13 years old sneaking a boy into our house. I am livid. We screamed, preached and I finally broke into tears, out of ideas what to do with her. She just doesn't get how dangerous it is to be doing these things, she doesn't believe that SHE COULD end up ruining her life and stealing her own innocence away. She is constantly lying to me, Grandpa, Grandma and Jason. None of us can trust a single word that comes out of her mouth which hurts us all so bad. We never wanted it to get like this.

Just last night about midnight Jason woke me up saying "what are they doing up there?" and i listened and could hear thumping and walking around. Jason went upstairs and began hollering at Raeanne, I quickly climbed out of bed and went upstairs to investigate, hoping I could calm the situation and get to the bottom of whatever had happened. When I went upstairs Grandma was leaning on the stairwell handle, very upset. Raeanne had spent the weekend with her cousins Kelly and Megan. She had had a blast from what we could tell. We quickly found out why it was so much fun for her. She had broke into the office and stole the debit card. She had been using all weekend and ran up over $140 on it. When Grandma confronted her about it, she said "I didn't do it, maybe Montana went shopping with it". Are you kidding me? I wanted to slap her in the face. I do NOT steal, I do NOT lie. I would NEVER take her debit card and the fact she even mentioned that floored me, I was fighting back the tears and the anger that was rising, I was about to pounce on this "broken" child and knew it would solve NOTHING.

She has been getting away with every and its been made FAR TOO EASY for her. I think the family needs to sit down and talk, we need to discuss the options, one of which may need to be D.T. temporarily. Not that I want to just throw Raeanne away, but we are NOT GETTING through to her, she is NOT GRASPING this at all. She has this attitude that EVERYONE owes her everything and that if you don't jump when she says that you hate her. I am out of ideas. I don't know what to do from here. I know she is crying out for help, yet we are all failing to provide her the help she needs to get through this. Every time she makes a mistake like this we yell at her and set her GROUNDING rules up,yet 3 days later she is doing it ALL OVER again. I say one thing to her, she runs to Grandma and Grandma does something different. Its so hard. I don't know what to do, I feel we are going way to easy on her and Grandma is just the sweet lady that doesn't want to hurt her. We all want to just provide a happy home for her and lover her, but we are running out of ways to do this.

Lord help us. I just want her to wake up and realize what she is doing. Snap out of it, I miss that thankful sweet girl, this vicious, lying, sneaking, stealing, girl HAS GOT TO GO!!!!

St. Patrick's Day

A day of cooperation from everyone or a day of pinching, which leads to bruising the next day.. Hahaha.. I love St. Patrick's day. I think its exciting to see people loosen up a bit and enjoy the day, though not ALL involved are Irish, they play along with what is now left of the Holiday. IN the picture; Danielle (a friend at work) played along with the idea. :D I just love the glasses!
A few facts of St. Patrick's Day: St Patrick is known as the patron saint of Ireland. True, he was not a born Irish. But he has become an integral part of the Irish heritage, mostly through his service across Ireland of the 5th century.Patrick was the son of Calpurnius, a Roman-British army officer. He was growing up as naturally as other kids in Britain. However, one day a band of pirates landed in south Wales and kidnapped this boy along with many others. Then they sold him into slavery in Ireland. The was there for 6 years, mostly imprisoned. This was when changes came to him. He dreamed of having seen God. Legend says, he was then dictated by God to escape with a getaway ship.Finally, he did escape and went to Britain. And then to France. There he joined a monastery and studied under St. Germain, the bishop of Auxerre. He spent around 12 years in training. And when he became a bishop he dreamed that the Irish were calling him back to Ireland to tell them about God. The Confessio, Patrick's spiritual autobiography, is the most important document regarding this. It tells of a dream after his return to Britain, in which one Victoricus delivered him a letter headed "The Voice of the Irish."True, these are mostly legends. But, after some 1500 years, these legends have been inseparably combined with the facts. And together they have helped us know much about the Saint and the spirit behind celebration of the day. Patrick's mission in Ireland lasted for over 20 years. He died on March 17, AD 461. That day has been commemorated as St. Patrick's Day ever since. The day's spirit is to celebrate the universal baptization of Ireland. Though originally a Catholic holy day, St. Patrick's Day has evolved into more of a secular holiday. Or, rather, 'be an Irish Day '. And the Irish has borne it as part of their national tradition in everywhere they populated and prospered. The Catholic feast day for this most loved of Irish saints has become a holiday in celebration of the Irish and Irish culture. The leprechaun, a Celtic fairy, has become entrenched as a chief symbol for this holiday, as is the shamrock, an ancient symbol for the triple goddess Brigit. It is fitting that this holiday should fall at the time of the year when the return of spring begins to seem at hand. But why the icons like the green color, the tri-leafed shamrock, the leprechaun, or the pot of gold.

I am always excited every year for St. Patrick's day because its an excuse to dress up and have a little fun. Plus if you don't wear green I get to pinch ya ;) !!!
Some fun pictures from Brittany & Gary's Party =)

I also got my butt kicked.. But it was all in good fun... These 2 are TOUGH GALS.. LESSON LEARNED... hahahaha

~ My Team~

My team at work is amazing. I really enjoy the people that I work with. They all truly help me get through our 10 hour days. It's nice! I never thought I would get along with coworkers as much as I get along with these girls. So thanks ladies. :D Well for birthdays on our team we either do a potluck or take the birthday girl out to lunch. Mickey is our newest team member and we decided to surprise her and go out to eat. We ventured outside the walls of our work and walked to the Cinnegrill- really good if you are in the area. :D

We sat down and were all chatting and laughing and then our food arrived. During the lunch Sigma Ki(not sure if that is right?) showed up to have a little reunion. There were 40 Frat. Men talking, laughing, chanting and hugging. It got pretty loud. We ended up hearing more of their conversations then the one we were trying to take part in at our own table. But we managed to still have a good time and sneak in a PHOTO..From L to R: Jill, Helen, Pam, Mickey, Lee, Anna, myself, and Heidi

It was really nice to get away from work and have a chance to get together for lunch. Thanks girls, look forward to our next birthday adventure!

Amazing Work Friends

Work has been really busy lately, so we haven't had the chance to get out as much as we used to. But some of us girls here at work, try to go out to lunch on a regular basis..
Finally today we were able to go again. We just went and got some burgers and fries and chit chat... We were laughing the entire time, which was needed!
When we finished eating, we decided to make our own little photo shoot on our way back to work!

(ABOVE: Not sure why i am making that face, but it was SO COMICAL)

Thanks to Roberta, Candace, Melissa, and Danielle for making work SO MUCH FUN!! :D Love ya girls! :D

~ Spartacus ~

'Spartacus' Star Faces a Different Kind of Battle
Fans of the new show will be saddened to learn that Andy Whitfield, star of Starz's gladiator series "Spartacus: Blood and Sand," has been diagnosed with non-Hodgkin's lymphoma, according to The Hollywood Reporter. The sexy actor, who has been turning heads as the (mostly shirtless) title character since the show debuted in January, says the good news is that his cancer was caught early and is very treatable. The series was about to start shooting its second season, but will temporarily halt production while Whitfield undergoes treatment.

**This is one of my new FAVORITE shows on TV right now. I truly hope that he takes the time needed to allow a full recovery.. **

I hope this show makes several seasons. I am sure I will continue to watch them all. Jason and I have been hooked since the first episode. It's wild and seductive in parts, but its a good show! Best of luck Andy!

~ Eclipse Trailer ~

So I feel like I am a CRAZY fan again. They just released the trailer to Eclipse and I can't stop watching it. This is my favorite book and I am so excited to see it brought to life. From the trailer it looks like it could be the best one of them all.. SO far.. I am counting down the days til I can go sit in the theater with a bunch of crazed fans and enjoy this movie. So, in case you haven't seen it yet, here is the newly released Trailer! ENJOY!! I am still watching it! :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S2HIda5wSVU

One Page At A Time

I am trying to read more and more. Since I picked up the Twilight book, I have had this insane addiction to reading. I can't seem to stop. I put down a book, only to begin wondering what the next one I am grabbing will be about. Its a new enjoyment to me and I really am SO THRILLED to be "this into it". I am on Goodreads and I am trying to read more books each year then the previous year. I know that I am new at this, but having so much fun doing so nonetheless.

I have read 8 books so far this year and have about 25 that I have to read in my house now. Hahahaha.. It doesn't seem to make me feel overwhelmed at all either, just really excited! One of my FAVORITE authors is Chelsea Handler. She is so funny. She has a show on E. Chelsea Lately and I am hooked on it as well, she is the only female doing late night TV and she is so funny! Well she has written 3 books. I have completed the first 2 of them "My Horizontal Life: A Collection of one-night stands" and "Are you there Vodka? Its me Chelsea" both of which I read in a day. She is so talented in her style of writing. a line from her book; "Two kinds of people in the world I don't trust, people who don't drink & people who collect stickers". Oh man. Well she has just got another book out called "Chelsea Chelsea Bang Bang" I am SO Excited to get this book and relax on my couch, I will finish it quickly! Chelsea... as you would say "you have my blessing. Please keep writing books and I will keep reading them".

Other books I have read this year so far are:

I am so excited to get through so many more, so please if you know of any great book titles, DON'T HESITATE TO REFER THEM TO ME! :D

Quick Trip

We have been wanting to take Papa to Wendover, but he had started his radiation treatment, Well he just finished his last treatment and we knew we needed to take him. It just so happened that Sam & her family were planning a trip there as well, so we made plans to all meet up when we got there. I drove us there and we decided to go to Burger King for Dinner because the buffet was $25 a person. Granted I am not absolutely poor, but NO WAY am I spending $75 dollars for 3 people to eat BUFFET food.. FORGET THAT, instead we totaled about $13.00 and we all got full, then it was off to the casinos. :D

Now I am NO good at gambling, but I enjoy watching and it just so happens, that was Sam's idea too! So we quickly met up and the 2 of us were walking around and laughing. Having a few drinks, we met this really nice older guy and he was kind enough to show us "HOW TO GET OUR DRINKS" haha. He said in a STRONG TONE "play at the bar and just order drinks, they are free" we all knew that before, but since I am NO PRO at gambling I was nervous. Sam and I found a few chairs right at the bar and "ABRA-KA-DABRA" we were getting drinks alright.. I think they averaged about .40 cents a drink or so.. I put in $2 dollars and we made it last so long. :D It was great. We decided we needed to get a few pictures to capture our night and it was so funny after taking some pictures I spilled my drink down my leg, :( but it was funny. Sam said "I can spill on my leg so we match" I love that girl, so much fun. Thanks for meeting up with me Sam. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON! :D

Jason and Papa did great too. They were at the same tables for a while, playing blackjack. They were up and down, but staying pretty close.. It was entertaining.. Sam's aunt won over $1,000 and her mom quickly won $100. It was so exciting!

Sam and her family left on the fun bus so I went back to find Jason. When we were walking around, they found the craps table and decided to give it a go. WOW!! They did so great, we were there for over 2 hours playing at that table I think and it was so exciting. Jason rolled for about 45 minutes straight and kept getting everyone $$.. We ended up leaving Wendover up $30 and Papa came home with with about what he took, so it was a fun trip. I got a little sleepy on the way home, but with the help of my DJ we made it back safe and sound, pulling into our drive way about 4a.m. But I can't wait to go again.

A few nights out with friends

Lately Jason and I have been staying home. While it has been really nice being home and all, once in a while its so nice to get out with our friends and healthy too. Well Ellie had mentioned this band that was playing at the bar and we though WHAT THE HECK, lets go check it out, it was nice to escape and have a night with some GREAT COMPANY!!!

Well Ellie had later mentioned to us that she was going to try out for a chance to sing on stage with the band called Halestorm. If you haven't seen it, http://www.halestormrocks.com/video/ellie-doing-halestormmod/ go check it out.. We hope that she wins.. She really can sing, So talented! The bar we went to was in Riverton and let me just say it was A BLAST!! It was a small little Cowboy bar but it was so much fun. I can't wait to go again!

I am so happy lately I am surrounded by loved ones and amazing friends. I can't tell you the last time I remember being this happy with my life. Things really seem to be going SO WELL!!!