TOOO MUCH

Sometimes we need a venting session, well thankfully a Blog is JUST the thing for such occurrences..Lately I've been Feeling extremely overwhelmed. Too much loss happening around me. While I am trying to stay positive and focus on the good, its so hard to do that when your loved ones are at risk. At such risks that we are forced to sit back and wait, watch. Powerless to stop it or help them.




Jason's Auntie Mitzi is at home now. The cancer is too much, they also have found 2 tumors in her brain. They have said that no treatment will cure it, but may postpone her passing. While things are difficult she is at home. Unknown at this point the timeline we have. Things are still "touch and go/Day to Day". The family is helpless, waiting to see what tomorrow holds. We all want to repay some sort of favor to Jeff & Mitzi as they are always helping those around them.






Also, my Aunt Shirley is now on her way back to Dillon. She has made the decision to STOP fighting and wants to go home. She too, is being sent home to pass away. She is no longer going to do dialysis(her blood sugar is going from 580 to 115 in a matter of 30 minutes. Then 30 minutes later its back up above 500). The way its going, she'll end up in a diabetic coma. My aunt has been battling her diabetes for over 45 years. She has lost her legs due to infections that weren't caught in time. She is the most amazing woman out there!. We are taking an emergency trip to Dillon Montana this weekend in order to get to say our goodbyes.




I wrote this poem for my Aunt Shirley today, while at work

~Time to Fly~

So many emotions, I don't know where to start.

It's so hard to explain what I feel in my heart.

For as long as I can remember, you've been like a mother.

So loving and caring to me and my brother.

Countless times we ended up at your front door.

To stay for a few days, sometimes more.

You never hesitated, always let us come right in & stay.

We never felt unwanted or like we were in the way.

You'd smile and laugh and make us feel "at home".

I know you'd do it again for us, even though we're grown.

I can't thank you enough for all that you have done.

You've outdone so many, yet you're only one.

You truly are the strongest woman that I've ever known.

I pray you know you aren't going through this alone

I have always been inspired by your strength and ability to smile.

Not stressing over petty things, but focusing on what's worth while.

It's hard to imagine you not being here, I don't want to say good-bye.

But I know you hear him calling, "It's time for you to fly".

It's time for you to be set free and finally be at peace.

Just know I'll always love and miss you, love always, Your Niece

My heart is breaking at the thought of losing both Aunts in such a short period of time. Yet, I know its all a part of life. They are just getting there sooner than the rest of us, they'll be there waiting when its our turn. They both deserve to be at peace & I do know that we'll get through this.. LOVE YOU BOTH!!!